Today I wanna write about double standard, in Malay pilih kasih. Memang byk yg terjadi dlm kehidupan seharian kita pilih memilih bulu ni, tp kalau benda ni terjadi dlm keluarga sendiri, aduhai… sedihnya perasaan hati.
I don’t know why I feel sad, and angry… this thing happened to my kids… For them, my parents are their only grannies, my in-laws passed away before they were born. So pd sape lagi diorg nk bermanja kalau bukan dgn my parents… tp sad to say, my parents… my abah esp, x layan sgt cucu2 dia ni. He’s more to the one yg stay ngn dia… well, come to think of it, logic la kan dia syg budak2 tu lebih lagi… but think again, bukan ke supposenya kalau dah lama x jumpa and sekali sekala kami dari KL ni balik, pamper la bdk2 tu sket.. but he prefers to pamper the one yg kat kg tu jugak… I’m not asking to be treated extra special, nope.. but at least make my kids stay at my hometown a memorable one. Abah selalu sgt compare kan cucu dia kat kg tu ngn my kids… Kami yg dgr ni memmang terasa hati, wht more if it ‘s heard by my husband… lagi dia kecik ati… Wht I don’t like most the impact of this behavior, has made my family and I draw a distance in our relationship wth my hometown. Balik kg is no longer a fun thing to do… the only thing left is paying our responsibility visiting them.
I’ve been keeping this to myself quite some time already.. sbb I’m the one yg selalu berada dgn my kids when they are around. So I can notice the differences of treatment tht he showed towards my kids and their cousins (My sister, the mothers for these two… is now furthering her study iin KL, while the father is a police officer, who sometimes kena attend out station operasi… sebulan sekali gitu la.. bila time dia xde operasi, bdk2 ni akan tdo ngn my parents, except weekend sbb my sister blk ALMOST every weekend.
Entahla.. salah ke if I’m having this feeling? Is it guilty to have such an unsatisfied feeling for towards my parents action?? I don’t know… Wht I can do now is only pray hard and hope tht my husband and I won’t become like wht my parents have become now. Jauhkan lah kami dr perassan piligh kasih dan memenangkan sesebelah pihak shj. Amiinn… and I do pray and hope the best will come out from my kids… I have never forget my parents effort and everything tht they have done to raise me. TQVM ma and abah.. ampunkan Yati for having this feelings unto both of u. Sesungguhnya hanya Allah sahajalah yg dpt membalsa segala jasa baik abah n ma pd kami sekeluarga
